@ 30 months 3 weeks 6 days
Poor Ryan boy became the victim of mommy’s foul mood yesterday morning. I was reading the newspaper when I heard sotong asking Ryan if he wants cereal. Expectedly he answered NO. He has been so picky on his food in the last few months that it’s seriously driving me up the wall. If he doesn’t like the taste, he’ll say NO. If he doesn’t like the look of it, he’ll say NO. Anything unfamiliar to him is a big NO NO.
Sotong was sure delighted when Ryan said No. That naturally means, she could go out earlier (it was her off day). But I summoned her to prepare and feed Ryan his star cereals anyway. This big fussy boy took a small bite and decided he wanted no more of the star cereals, instead he insisted his desire to have banana and more Ultraman show. I seriously think he’s getting too much of Ultraman and I warned him if he doesn’t finish his cereals, I will throw all his Ultraman(s) away.
Unperturbed by my warnings, he continued to reject his cereals and started jumping around. This would seemed like an everyday thing , nothing to be angry about I know but somehow yesterday it hit me. At the spur of moment I threw all his Ultraman (5), power ranger (1) and monters (3) to the other end of the living room. I was really
By then the poor boy sensed the madness in this fury mommy. He kept saying ‘sorry mommy sorry mommy, yj sit down already’… and guess what this mommy answered. I said.. ‘Do whatever you want, mommy don’t care’. Thinking back, I couldn’t believe I actually uttered those hurtful words on a 2.5 year old kid. What kind of mommy I am????????
The next thing that happened made me teary eyed. Poor boy quietly walked over to his beloved toys, picking the Ultramans up one by one; only to fumble and seeing them falling one by one from his grib too. His tiny hands are simply too tiny to pick them all up in one go. He didn’t ask for help.. and I don’t know why I did not offer either. I just sat there like a big fat statue staring at her little boy, mind overshadowed by guilt and remorse of what I just did, of what the heck I was thinking and what on earth was on my @&^*% mind to do such cruel hurtful thing to her son. What have I done?? Sobss….
Ryan managed to reunite all his Ultraman(s) after two rounds. My senses finally came back. I asked him to come over and gave him a big big hug and said I was sorry. He wasn’t a tiny bit angry at his mommy instead he said this to me… ‘mommy, smile please‘
Ryan, mommy is truly sorry. I love you.. lotssssssssss.