1 year 3 weeks 5 days
When Ryan is happy, he will surprise us with how affectionate he can be. He will come to us, hold on to our head and start banging his head against ours (yeah.. that’s his way of showing affection konon-nya). On the other side of this little fella’s character, he can be quite stubborn. He’ll point to you the things he want and start “MMM MMM MMM – EH EH EH – MMM MMM MMM – EH EH EH” and it goes on and on and on and on until he gets what he wants. I hate to say this but sometimes we just gave in because he’s just too noisy. *slap head*. This is also exactly what happened that day. Of course coupled with his usual million dollar tears, he is always the winner in this silent game.
Come back to the analogy part. It is not that I have not been strict. The word “NO-NO” and the “NO-NO” handshake were the first few words/expressions he learnt. But I must admit sometimes I slacked and just couldn’t be firmed enough especially when I see his pitiful face. I would gave myself excuses like – Oh, he’s just a baby etc etc etc… but if I use my senses more rationally, the explanation is, in a mother’s eye, her child will always be her baby regardless the age. So, how do I know when is the best time to assert strict discipline. Aiks… you know.. it’s very ‘sum toong’ (heartache) when I see him cry because of something he loves to have. Arrgh..that look on his face. My heart just melts.
But moving on, I must must must learn to be more firm on disciplining the little monster; in the name of his future’s sake la. It is not easy I know, and I have no experience for sure…knowing me myself is also not a very discipline person…*blehhh* but I promise myself, I shall try my best as I definitely do not want my child to grow up being a spoilt brat with no respect for others what not. You know, when a child is a spoilt fella, it is always the mother that gets the blame most of the time. A very common chinese phrase you’ll likely get is “Wei, lei ah ma mo gau lei ar” (Your mummy never teach you). So Ryan… I want you to grow up be a good boy, good person to the your family and the society. Don’t let anyone scold your mummy with the phrase above ya..
More notes to Ryan: Ryan, you may hate mummy for being so strict on you but as I always say, someone has to be the ‘bad guy’ in the family and I’m sure you’ll understand mummy’s effort when you grow up to become a successful young man one day. Mummy’s love is always with you.
Wish me luck…
To all mommies out there.. HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY.